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Why I Am Now a Christian<\/a><\/p>\n

In 2002, I discovered a 1927 lecture by Bertrand Russell entitled \u201cWhy I am Not a Christian\u201d. It did not cross my mind, as I read it, that one day, nearly a century after he delivered it to the South London branch of the National Secular Society, I would be compelled to write an essay with precisely the opposite title.<\/p>\n

The year before, I had publicly condemned the terrorist attacks of the 19 men who had hijacked passenger jets and crashed them into the twin towers in New York. They had done it in the name of my religion, Islam. I was a Muslim then, although not a practicing one. If I truly condemned their actions, then where did that leave me? The underlying principle that justified the attacks was religious, after all: the idea of Jihad or Holy War against the infidels. Was it possible for me, as for many members of the Muslim community, simply to distance myself from the action and its horrific results?<\/p>\n

At the time, there were many eminent leaders in the West \u2014 politicians, scholars, journalists, and other experts \u2014 who insisted that the terrorists were motivated by reasons other than the ones they and their leader Osama Bin Laden had articulated so clearly. So Islam had an alibi.<\/p>\n

This excuse-making was not only condescending towards Muslims. It also gave many Westerners a chance to retreat into denial. Blaming the errors of US foreign policy was easier than contemplating the possibility that we were confronted with a religious war. We have seen a similar tendency in the past five weeks, as millions of people sympathetic to the plight of Gazans seek to rationalize the October 7 terrorist attacks as a justified response to the policies of the Israeli government.<\/p>\n

When I read Russell\u2019s lecture, I found my cognitive dissonance easing. It was a relief to adopt an attitude of scepticism towards religious doctrine, discard my faith in God and declare that no such entity existed. Best of all, I could reject the existence of hell and the danger of everlasting punishment.<\/p>\n

Russell\u2019s assertion that religion is based primarily on fear resonated with me. I had lived for too long in terror of all the gruesome punishments that awaited me. While I had abandoned all the rational reasons for believing in God, that irrational fear of hellfire still lingered. Russell\u2019s conclusion thus came as something of a relief: \u201cWhen I die, I shall rot.\u201d<\/p>\n

To understand why I became an atheist 20 years ago, you first need to understand the kind of Muslim I had been. I was a teenager when the Muslim Brotherhood penetrated my community in Nairobi, Kenya, in 1985. I don\u2019t think I had even understood religious practice before the coming of the Brotherhood. I had endured the rituals of ablutions, prayers and fasting as tedious and pointless.<\/p>\n

The preachers of the Muslim Brotherhood changed this. They articulated a direction: the straight path. A purpose: to work towards admission into Allah\u2019s paradise after death. A method: the Prophet\u2019s instruction manual of do\u2019s and don\u2019ts \u2014 the halal and the haram. As a detailed supplement to the Qur\u2019an, the hadeeth spelled out how to put into practice the difference between right and wrong, good and evil, God and the devil.<\/p>\n

The Brotherhood preachers left nothing to the imagination. They gave us a choice. Strive to live by the Prophet\u2019s manual and reap the glorious rewards in the hereafter. On this earth, meanwhile, the greatest achievement possible was to die as a martyr for the sake of Allah.<\/p>\n

The alternative, indulging in the pleasures of the world, was to earn Allah\u2019s wrath and be condemned to an eternal life in hellfire. Some of the \u201cworldly pleasures\u201d they were decrying included reading novels, listening to music, dancing, and going to the cinema \u2014 all of which I was ashamed to admit that I adored.<\/p>\n

The most striking quality of the Muslim Brotherhood was their ability to transform me and my fellow teenagers from passive believers into activists, almost overnight. We didn\u2019t just say things or pray for things: we did things. As girls we donned the burka and swore off Western fashion and make-up. The boys cultivated their facial hair to the greatest extent possible. They wore the white dress-like tawb worn in Arab countries or had their trousers shortened above their ankle bones. We operated in groups and volunteered our services in charity to the poor, the old, the disabled and the weak. We urged fellow Muslims to pray and demanded that non-Muslims convert to Islam.<\/p>\n

During Islamic study sessions, we shared with the preacher in charge of the session our worries. For instance, what should we do about the friends we loved and felt loyal to but who refused to accept our dawa (invitation to the faith)? In response, we were reminded repeatedly about the clarity of the Prophet\u2019s instructions. We were told in no uncertain terms that we could not be loyal to Allah and Muhammad while also maintaining friendships and loyalty towards the unbelievers. If they explicitly rejected our summons to Islam, we were to hate and curse them.<\/p>\n

Here, a special hatred was reserved for one subset of unbeliever: the Jew. We cursed the Jews multiple times a day and expressed horror, disgust and anger at the litany of offences he had allegedly committed. The Jew had betrayed our Prophet. He had occupied the Holy Mosque in Jerusalem. He continued to spread corruption of the heart, mind and soul.<\/p>\n

You can see why, to someone who had been through such a religious schooling, atheism seemed so appealing. Bertrand Russell offered a simple, zero-cost escape from an unbearable life of self-denial and harassment of other people. For him, there was no credible case for the existence of God. Religion, Russell argued, was rooted in fear: \u201cFear is the basis of the whole thing \u2014 fear of the mysterious, fear of defeat, fear of death.\u201d<\/p>\n

As an atheist, I thought I would lose that fear. I also found an entirely new circle of friends, as different from the preachers of the Muslim Brotherhood as one could imagine. The more time I spent with them \u2014 people such as Christopher Hitchens and Richard Dawkins \u2014 the more confident I felt that I had made the right choice. For the atheists were clever. They were also a great deal of fun.<\/p>\n

So, what changed? Why do I call myself a Christian now?<\/p>\n

Part of the answer is global. Western civilisation is under threat from three different but related forces: the resurgence of great-power authoritarianism and expansionism in the forms of the Chinese Communist Party and Vladimir Putin\u2019s Russia; the rise of global Islamism, which threatens to mobilise a vast population against the West; and the viral spread of woke ideology, which is eating into the moral fibre of the next generation.<\/p>\n

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We endeavour to fend off these threats with modern, secular tools: military, economic, diplomatic and technological efforts to defeat, bribe, persuade, appease or surveil. And yet, with every round of conflict, we find ourselves losing ground. We are either running out of money, with our national debt in the tens of trillions of dollars, or we are losing our lead in the technological race with China.<\/p>\n

But we can\u2019t fight off these formidable forces unless we can answer the question: what is it that unites us? The response that \u201cGod is dead!\u201d seems insufficient. So, too, does the attempt to find solace in \u201cthe rules-based liberal international order\u201d. The only credible answer, I believe, lies in our desire to uphold the legacy of the Judeo-Christian tradition.<\/p>\n

That legacy consists of an elaborate set of ideas and institutions designed to safeguard human life, freedom and dignity \u2014 from the nation state and the rule of law to the institutions of science, health and learning. As Tom Holland has shown in his marvellous book Dominion, all sorts of apparently secular freedoms \u2014 of the market, of conscience and of the press \u2014 find their roots in Christianity.<\/p>\n

And so I have come to realise that Russell and my atheist friends failed to see the wood for the trees. The wood is the civilisation built on the Judeo-Christian tradition; it is the story of the West, warts and all. Russell\u2019s critique of those contradictions in Christian doctrine is serious, but it is also too narrow in scope.<\/p>\n

For instance, he gave his lecture in a room full of (former or at least doubting) Christians in a Christian country. Think about how unique that was nearly a century ago, and how rare it still is in non-Western civilisations. Could a Muslim philosopher stand before any audience in a Muslim country \u2014 then or now \u2014 and deliver a lecture with the title \u201cWhy I am not a Muslim\u201d? In fact, a book with that title exists, written by an ex-Muslim. But the author published it in America under the pseudonym Ibn Warraq. It would have been too dangerous to do otherwise.<\/p>\n

To me, this freedom of conscience and speech is perhaps the greatest benefit of Western civilisation. It does not come naturally to man. It is the product of centuries of debate within Jewish and Christian communities. It was these debates that advanced science and reason, diminished cruelty, suppressed superstitions, and built institutions to order and protect life, while guaranteeing freedom to as many people as possible. Unlike Islam, Christianity outgrew its dogmatic stage. It became increasingly clear that Christ\u2019s teaching implied not only a circumscribed role for religion as something separate from politics. It also implied compassion for the sinner and humility for the believer.<\/p>\n

Yet I would not be truthful if I attributed my embrace of Christianity solely to the realisation that atheism is too weak and divisive a doctrine to fortify us against our menacing foes. I have also turned to Christianity because I ultimately found life without any spiritual solace unendurable \u2014 indeed very nearly self-destructive. Atheism failed to answer a simple question: what is the meaning and purpose of life?<\/p>\n

Russell and other activist atheists believed that with the rejection of God we would enter an age of reason and intelligent humanism. But the \u201cGod hole\u201d \u2014 the void left by the retreat of the church \u2014 has merely been filled by a jumble of irrational quasi-religious dogma. The result is a world where modern cults prey on the dislocated masses, offering them spurious reasons for being and action \u2014 mostly by engaging in virtue-signalling theatre on behalf of a victimised minority or our supposedly doomed planet. The line often attributed to G.K. Chesterton has turned into a prophecy: \u201cWhen men choose not to believe in God, they do not thereafter believe in nothing, they then become capable of believing in anything.\u201d<\/p>\n

In this nihilistic vacuum, the challenge before us becomes civilisational. We can\u2019t withstand China, Russia and Iran if we can\u2019t explain to our populations why it matters that we do. We can\u2019t fight woke ideology if we can\u2019t defend the civilisation that it is determined to destroy. And we can\u2019t counter Islamism with purely secular tools. To win the hearts and minds of Muslims here in the West, we have to offer them something more than videos on TikTok.<\/p>\n

The lesson I learned from my years with the Muslim Brotherhood was the power of a unifying story, embedded in the foundational texts of Islam, to attract, engage and mobilise the Muslim masses. Unless we offer something as meaningful, I fear the erosion of our civilisation will continue. And fortunately, there is no need to look for some new-age concoction of medication and mindfulness. Christianity has it all.<\/p>\n

That is why I no longer consider myself a Muslim apostate, but a lapsed atheist. Of course, I still have a great deal to learn about Christianity. I discover a little more at church each Sunday. But I have recognised, in my own long journey through a wilderness of fear and self-doubt, that there is a better way to manage the challenges of existence than either Islam or unbelief had to offer.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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